In recent days I have been things that had not all happened so fast that I have not had time to understand the exhaustion that devours me, loneliness, that eternal chase mine bad weather that has been stained gray sky and the clouds obscured my heart hurt more and more squeeze into my chest and my breath away. I can only say that I go back to biting my nails ... Always I think I am imperfect, for myself, my friends, for everyone ... I've always believed to be unworthy of friendship, for love ... I have always been less than anyone else, trying to learn every day a little bit about me, on the subject how to ease the burden for me is my self, my consent, those shackles that tie me to reality, a reality that did not want to live but to which I am doomed. Again I feel fucked up, party on the inside ... I do not think I act bad because I like to hurt people I love, no, that would be crazy ... I tend to be selfish with each other and with me, I tend to be goat, is usually much things but I never do it cheap excuses to hide behind ... I am and always will be responsible for the things I did, do and will for the rest of my life, never lower my eyes to look at the ground and hide their tails between their legs ... it never will.
is a long way to go, but that road is in front of me, never behind, that I know, that I am always safe.
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